I figured I would make a post today, but I thought it would be about a conflict I am mediating between friends. It may apply to that as well, but it’s not directly what I’m going to talk about today.
Today I am going to talk about conquering anxiety.
When I applied for college, it was to the Education program. Before I started, I switched to Communications. People had filled my head with all the horrible, discouraging things aspiring teachers hear; “You know you won’t get paid much, right?” “Don’t you think you’re selling yourself short?” “Those who can’t, teach!” I felt freer and like my future had more flexibility if I pursued a liberal studies major. But I wasn’t in love with it. I wanted to be! I really, really wanted to be. But I just wasn’t motivated. I failed my first year of college (Fall 2014 – Spring 2015) trying to figure it all out. I blamed everyone and everything else, but I was really just missing one very important thing: a path.
After how I felt yesterday, I came to a disappointing conclusion: I can’t keep doing this much cardio while our air conditioning is broken. It’s “dangerous” enough to walk in the heat, but to come home to a ninety degree house is making me physically unwell. Until further notice, I’m going to focus on yoga and isolated workouts indoors, and then hopefully resume my walking when the weather and my conditions at home are permitting. Everything I’ve read has said to take cues from your body, and yesterday my body was telling me that I’m pushing it a wee bit too hard with this heat.
I’ll get back to it as soon as I can, but in the meantime I’m going to have to go about my health and weight loss in other ways.
Today was Day 7 of my walking. 1.5 miles with a migraine…questionable, at best? I honestly thought that maybe the walk would help. That lacing up and getting out there and sweating would make the pressure in my neck go away, but I was wrong. It didn’t make it worse, but the headache definitely hindered my ability to enjoy the walk or make any progress with my times. I averaged around 16:41/mile; I was more consistent than normal, my miles were only about ten seconds apart as opposed to the minute/mile difference in pace I usually see. I’m feeling discouraged, but I think it’s because of how my head is feeling and likely has very little to do with the exercise I’ve been doing. (Actually, it probably has a LOT to do with the fact that my house is pushing 86 degrees right now).
So, I’m thinking… the walking is huge and I think it’s benefiting me, for sure. But is there something to be said for focusing on other parts of my body as well, and maybe taking some time to focus on other forms of exercise. Stretching, yoga, weights, etc. This is probably just the headache talking and not wanting to go out for 2.03 miles tomorrow, but I really think I want to start exploring additional methods of toning and rotate them with the cardio. 25-40 minutes of walking is no big hairy deal if it isn’t 90 degrees out.
Just an update, not that anyone is paying horribly close attention to my trivial little corner of the WWW. Last night, I felt horrible. I mean God-awful. I have a sore throat, the medicine I took had me totally fatigued, my house is a hot-box, the whole nine. My throat is still sore today and I woke up with full intentions of making it a lazy, unproductive day with the help of Ellen DeGeneres and Tyler Henry.
I’d made a post several weeks ago about planning to start training, and then bailed after one day so I deleted the post. But I’m back, and I’m committed.
Let’s get the run down (no pun intended). I started walking on Saturday (5/13), and am tracking my progress with Map My Run, which I LOVE. 10000/10, definitely recommend.
I don’t know where this concept originated. To be perfectly honest, I just saw it in passing on Pinterest and it resonated with me. I knew it was the perfect introduction to this blog.
The three C’s in life: choice, chance, and change.
You must make the choice to take the chance if you want anything in your life to change…